Junkie

And no, I don’t mean anyone of these guys.

I feel like a junkie because of all the meds I have sitting on my dining room table. I should take a picture of it all.
I have two shopping bags full of Menopur and Bravelle. And yes, please Google them if you feel inclined to do so. I may post more on the meds later. Then I have a somewhat smaller bag full of Gonal F and a whole bag full of needles. It just hurts to look at it. There are also the really big 1 ½ inch ones for the Novarel (HCG) and for the Progesterone. Precisely for the latter two meds the nurse drew some really cute shapes on my butt so that the hubby knows where to inject me with them. We did a test yesterday with simple Sodium Chloride and it wasn’t that bad, but I heard the Progesterone is though since it is in oil, but we will see.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is the big the day. My baseline appointment is finally here.
To this day I have still not had any side effects, which I hope will continue. I should get more meds tomorrow too, so who knows how many injections I get to have each night.

The other day, when I was putting the cap back on my needle, it went through the cap and poked me in my finger. It still hurts now. But that is a small price to pay for the joys that are to come :))

When it Rains…

You know the rest.

Sometimes things just happen out of nowhere and it makes you feel like somebody wants to screw everything up for you. And all you get to do is keep going and hoping it’ll all work out in the end.

Day 11

I know I am going to jinx myself here, but this the 11th day I am on Lupron and so far I have not had any side effects.
There was one incident when I got a little too emotional in the morning because I was soooooooo tired, but that might’ve been regular grumpiness.

I have been waiting to post this, but I figured that 11 days is pretty long, but who knows. Stay tuned for the “told you so” post.

The never-published Post

Well, it should be more like the never-written post, but there were attempts over the last two months.

It has been somewhat stress-full lately, leading up to this month, which I like to call conception month. For the last three weeks I have been taking the birth control pill, even though I don’t even want to control that. Now I am on Lupron, which I have to inject myself with each night. Today was actually my first shot. It is quite different if you’re giving yourself a shot or somebody else as I have done many times before with my stepson when he was still on growth hormone. But all went well and I am still alive.

Reading over all the side effects and especially patients’ comments doesn’t make me feel too good about Lupron, but I keep in mind that most of them took it for other reasons.

I take it to completely suppress all production of eggs as the clinic, meaning my doc and the nurses would like to control that part of my cycle.

I am not very good at describing such medical details, but I hope my few readers (are there any?) will get the gist of this.

Now, the plan is for me to continue this for about two weeks. I will actually stop with the pill this weekend. Then, is my so-called baseline appointment which is meant to get a good reading of the status of my status (??). Then I will get more meds, which are then designed to overproduce eggs. They are called super-ovulatory drugs. Once that is done, the eggs will be retrieved and fertilized and then put back and then all should go well from there. While I am looking forward for that day, I am trying to keep focused on what is happening right now.

So, if I won’t post for another two months or so, you know why.

Happy Birthday Sweetie!!!

Today is the husband's birthday, so in case you read this:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Love you.

Better Late Than Never

I have finally managed to update the book I'm currently reading on the upper right there, see?
It's Herman Melville's Moby-Dick (is there any other?).
Although I am already half way through with it, I supposed it will be a while before I am actually done with it.
So far I am not too impressed.

National Day of Prayer

I just took a look at my calendar and noticed that today is the National Day of Prayer.
Hmm….I wonder why I haven’t heard about it until now??
For more info go here.

Straw Widow?

There is a saying in German, that you are a so-called straw widow or widower if your spouse is temporarily gone. So I guess that’s me for now. I will get him back though for a few days by the end of this week, only to lose him yet again.

It’s OK though, since I take this time to get real useful things done around the house. Except for today because the world’s best TV show is back on. I love Heroes. I can’t wait.

No News is Good News.

Or at least, that’s what they say.
Did you know that a viral infection or a bacterial infection could cause your thyroid to go nuts? Now, I’m, not a medical professional, so please correct me, if I am wrong here, but apparently that’s why my TSH levels were off. TSH is the thyroid-stimulating hormone.
So what happened was, that just when I got all my blood work done for the fertility treatment, I happened to have abnormal TSH levels. So they had me repeat the test and that time the levels were even worse. I went to see an Endocrinologist who ordered more tests that kind of supported his theory of me having some sort of hyperthyroidism. So, then he sent me to Nuclear Medicine (fun, huh?), so that they could do a thyroid scan. The doc there asked me I am there, because my thyroid looks OK, maybe a little UNDERactive. SO, guess what? More blood tests. Now my thyroid is underactive which is normal if I really had just an inflammation, since now it’s trying to stabilize itself.
In any way, by the end of this month I will get yet more blood drawn in hopes that my thyroid is OK, which means the fertility folks will be happy and me too.

About Time

So I decided to scratch the big post I mentioned last week. Because there are continuously new updates it didn’t even make sense any more. Plus, I guess I just had to wait until I wanted to write about all the new stuff going on here.

Well, so what is it you think (or not).
The short answer would be that the husband and I have decided to have a baby. The long answer would be that we’re really special and are going to try In Vitro Fertilization (IVF). Since we already know what the issue is, this is pretty much the only choice. We had our initial appointments already and just completed all blood tests. It should take about 6 months until we can get started from what I can tell, however apparently yours truly has a screwed up Thyroid (who knew?) so that has to be fixed first since apparently the thyroid plays an important part in this whole getting pregnant thing. So, I’ll see the doc on Thursday and then we’ll see.

So, that’s what’s going on. We are excited but with caution, especially since we haven’t even gone to the Orientation session.

Still There

I know....lazy me...

Anywho, all is OK. Some interesting developments lately. I have been writing the same post for months now and I don't think it will ever get posted.
But eventually I will post an update. I promise.

OK, back to work..I mean TV :))

Go Patriots!!!!

Merry Christmas

If everything goes right we’ll be on the road this afternoon and hopefully make it at least half way to Florida. Although this will be short trip it should be fun.
The whole back of the car is full of presents. The only thing left to pack are the clothes but that shouldn’t take too long.

Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year too if I’m not back before then.

Work Work Work

To expand on my previous post, I also bake cookies, which I will be doing this weekend to ensure the hubby has an adequate supply for the following week.
Sometimes I just can’t stand myself because I am so great.

Have a nice weekend!!

Best Wife Ever.

Yes, that would be me. Just ask the husband.
I like to have a beer with him, or go to a bar, or even a strip club.
I not only like sports and also watch it with him, I also get him sports memorabilia, which is just what I did.
I am truly the greatest!

See Ya!

Summer is almost gone. You better enjoy this last day.

Scratchy Throat

More like a tickle but it’s still bothering me like crazy. Have you ever sat next to a person who constantly clears their throat? Well, don’t sit next to me.

Thanks

Good timing Ted! I was debating what to write for my “I’m back”-post and then you comment. I almost gave up but who could resist?? Thanks:)

I don’t think I like Continental Airlines. The flight and all was good, but what bugged me was that on the way back I had to get my luggage and go through customs just to give it back so I can go on and catch my connecting flight to DC. Which of course did not work as planned since my one suitcase decided to take it slow. Lucky me I only had to wait two hours for the ext flight and I got to test the bar at the gate.

Other than that Germany was great. The weather sucked, but that was to be expected. Grandma is doing all right. She had a bad day when I saw her and kept closing her eyes. I am glad though that we took the time to travel one day just to see her. The wedding was good too. My dad made me dance the Twist and all I knew was the Waltz. Life just sucks, doesn’t it?

Anywho, I have tons of work to do which at least keeps me busy and I can’t even think about jetlag.